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- ✥ Amka's TransformationFeb. 2025[adult]
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Amka's Transformation
It was supposed to be the beginning of beginnings. A new life for a new year. Good things come... and all that.Those were Amka's thoughts as she tripped through the remnants of her humble home. Everything was trashed and the smell it generated nauseated her thoroughly - through and through. Only fire can generate such a stench. It sticks to you like an invisible rash constantly inflaming your frustration over an itch you can't scratch.
There had been far too much death as of late. The past years had been extremely rough and it seemed this ever deepening groove had become a bottomless pit. The needle that recorded the episodes of her life couldn't jump its way past this trench that stood between her and the soothing melody she longed to hear.
"Another mess to clean up", she mumbled to no one. She was tired of hearing folk talk of the "climate" every time a natural disaster descended upon every living creature in its path. The disasters seemed too often to bear the mark of an unnatural force at work. The shadow creatures, "the People", that play at being gods all day and night seemed to have no love in them for anyone or anything. It was their doing and none other.
It was no use. She hadn't the energy or the strength to face it; to face the ashen brokenness that stood before her. The bones of the structure were all that remained... she felt this deeply as though it were her that had been consumed and picked at until nothing was left.
"I need to clean all this off me", she thought, "I need to breathe the salty moist air and listen in stillness to the rhythmic sounds of the waves. That's always been my tonic. The ocean. A form of baptism and exorcism by way of water and wind".
She set off at once. The mess would be a mess for a few days longer. It just didn't matter.
The forest was her heart. She knew every tree by name. Every path and stone were known to her. The unnatural disasters had severely crippled the land of the trees. Their numbers dwindling under the intensity and frequency of the strange atmospheric attacks that bore no resemblance to times past. The land they shared, creature and tree, growing smaller by the day.
Amka began her journey slowly, moving at a very steady pace. It felt good to just be moving forward with nothing in her way. Her body relishing the release of the chaotic energy that was tightly coiled around her core. However, her mind seemed to be running an entirely different race pursued by an entity she could not readily identify.
Her thoughts frantically fluttering back and forth and like a bird in a cage she pondered on her circumstances.
"The trees and those of us that live here have no defenses to hold onto our ways - our very lives.
"What happened to the rules? What happened to the real gods? Have they been captured? Tied up with magic rope and thrown into the river of no return?
"Our petitions are met with 'Gone fishin' signs, she ruefully chuckled, "Maybe the gods want us to throw our hooks into the water; do the work, be patient, still, alert, and ready for action when they bite and resurface from their watery exile. We need to help them in order to help ourselves awaken the slumbering lion that resides in all of us.
"But how?", she agonized, "How do we get to the center of it all? How do we poison the blood that feeds the beast?"
She felt trapped inside a labyrinth of dead ends. Twists and turns that led to nowhere. "I'm a rat in a maze looking for a way out. Perhaps the way out is the way in?", she opined.
As she plodded along the trail her steps bounced with intensity as determination propelled her forward. Lungs burning and muscles aching she continued as she ignored the growing pain that began to shackle her gait and slow her down. Then it happened.
The pain had released her long held grief and commanded it out into the open. Her carefully crafted shields had dropped and she felt her grief fall upon her like hail in a driving wind; stinging every nerve she had left and those she had forgotten about.
Alone, all alone, she emoted like a volcano billowing dark clouds into the atmosphere. The tears would not be held back and streamed with hot intensity down her face and into the ground where she lay until she passed out.
She awoke a short time later and felt utterly spent. She had feared this moment. "What good comes from crying?", she whispered to herself. Surprisingly, she did feel somewhat relaxed and emptied. She had shared her pain, purged it upon the Earth body inhabited by the gods of creation, and it had absorbed it, rendered it inert.
She dusted herself off and saw she was nearly at the apex of her journey. It was down hill from here on out. Her pace was quick now as she traveled through the night guided by the cold light of the moon.
She could smell the sweet scent of the salty air as it beckoned her onward. She reached the shore just as the sun was about to rise above the water. This was her favorite time of day. The colors painted in the sky spoke to her soul. It dazzled her senses like the gem stones she had found strung together by the hands of "the People" that often left the oddest things behind in the forest. An elder had told her once that it was a "necklace" from ancient days.
As the Sun came into its fullness and spread its warmth and life upon the land Amka once again felt alive and transformed. She decided that the cares of the world may touch her but they would no longer harm her; the real her that only she could see.
She was aware that others judged her as a relic, a dinosaur, trapped in the past but she knew better. She would find "the Way" to expand her life from within even as the outside world contracted - rebirth would be the inevitable result for all of creation. Destruction always precedes creation. Not even the darkness disobeys this law of the Universe. It can destroy but it can not stop the Light nor the creation that follows in its wake.
Making her way back she was now ready to face the mess and transform it as she had been transformed. Remove the clutter, the broken items, and clear the space of useless debris. She smiled and thought, "The lion has risen and will not sleep again".
Erin